Where's the rainbow....

My house mate told me this morning that she is going to move out, citing too many memories shared with her ex boyfriend as a reason. Then I think she had better leave Singapore cos I am sure they must have gone to Orchard, maybe to Zouk, Cineleisure .... you get my drift.

She hasnt been home to sleep recently which makes me wonder where else could she stay? She is Malaysian PR by the way. Her parents are in KL.So yeah where can she stay? My suspicion lie with a third party perhaps, and so now she wants to go rest in his nest of lurve, escapism syndrome.

I am tired. Really drained out. This has to happen now in the midst of a major brain, life, soul, rhythm reshuffling. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought of all the people with the rags to richest stories, of how they came out the winner in the battle against the unknown. That is the only thing. Pure faith or a simple case of denial. The lottery syndrome.

My brain felt completely mashed up yesterday. I couldnt think ...or did I "accidentally on purpose" shut it down. Had a hangover from powerJAM, had diarrhoea, went for RT and the PTI at the gate said to me, " eh you know today is IPPT?" Fuck off! NO WAY!!!! Why didnt they announce last week. No one knew about it. Everyone was caught off guard. I went to drink as much water as possible. I couldn't manage to argue with my mind or the body when it yelled to stop running. I had no mood to challenge myself. At the last 800m, my chest started to hurt and the fingers on my left hand started to go numb. Oh shit! So I stopped and said time out. Now I have to go back 3 times a week. Could be a blessing. Cardiac syndrome

I got to sort out my shit. I dont feel balanced anymore. I am not in sync with the world. Was I really just floating in the clouds and reality is hitting harder? Was I just ignoring the signs to breathe a little more? To take a step back and slow down? Meltdown syndrome


Gotta go..... where I dont know.